The Caring Gardener

Of course people believed in souls, because how could someone who was once so full of life, now lay motionless, a mere empty shell? Where did you go? Where have they taken you to? 

A lifetime passed, all the laughters and conversations made are now just memories recalled. As you wait for the last trickle of sand to land, did you think that life was brief? One moment you were experiencing life for the first time, and the next moment Death is holding the door open, waiting for you to step through it. 

The wheel of life is such a weird and cruel thing, why were we born at all, if we are going to leave someday. Why give us all these things to love, if they are going to be taken away at the end of the day?

The untying of the rock

Thank you for dipping my legs in the sea,
for giving me a chance to be immersed in the cold water.
for allowing me to learn how to swim,
for giving me the chance to discover how to move my hands with the current,
for allowing me to plant hope in the deep blue of unknown.

In the Swirl of Moments - Exhibit K

In the swirl of moments, I gave you an opening. A chance to come into my world.

And I have never given anyone that chance before. You gave me your time of the day, and I got hooked. A day without your notifications made me spiral into the abyss of my anxious thoughts. I gave you the power of controlling my emotions without you even knowing. 

Monthly Wrap Up - February 2024

 

Hello! Welcome to a new tradition I am starting on my blog - a series of monthly wrap-ups - which aims to get an overview of all the stuff I've been doing for the past month! This includes the shows I've watched, books read, songs that were put on a loop until I've got every word of it memorized. and every events of my life that is worth mentioning!

sunlight

Sunlight is streaming in through the window,
caressing my face with its warmth,
the light it brings onto my skin,
is blowing away the dark clouds in my mind.

Can you feel how happy I am? I want this feeling to seep into these words and right through your screen and make petals of cherry blossoms to fall right around you! I want these words to billow a stream of breezes that kisses you in the cheek and swirl around you in a hug. I am thankful for the sunlight, and the warmth that it brings, and the feelings that it conjured in my heart. 

How do I ever tell the sun how much I love it? How do I ever let it know how I appreciate it so much? I hope by opening up the curtains and windows every morning and letting it stream into my room is enough of a love letter to it. 

The reflection of lights on the teapot, the stillness of a kitchen in the afternoon, everything that puts your existence under a magnifying glass, I shall love them all.

How My First Part Time Job Went!

 I quit my part time job! I was supposed to work until the 8th of October but I realized that I don't have the energy to go on for another 8 days so I decided to quit on the 29th (something triggered me to make such rushed decision but we're not gonna go into details about that T^T)

Quitting the job made me feel like I was born anew! (although ngl there's a lingering feeling of guilt weighing on my back but I'll take responsibility for that :') ) 

These 2 months of working definitely taught me a few things that I hope I would never forget and would be able to take advantage of. One of the lesson that I learned is to not be afraid to try new things. Of course you're not going to get immediately good at the things you just learned. It takes time and patience for you to master a certain skill. But that doesn't mean you should avoid doing it at all cost because "you're going to be bad at it". How else are you going to improve yourself if not by trying and practicing?

the everchanging perspectives on life

As the years of teenage closes behind me, I took my first step into the world of adulthood. Now my horizon is expanding, when I open the door I am greeted with the sight of an open field. There are not one, not two, but hundreds and thousands of roads branching out of the path that I am standing on.

Long story short I survived

  

I can't believe I am typing this, with 30 minutes left until 2021, on my bed, in college! Like what the hell? 

Midnight thoughts: Friendships

It has been quite a long time since I last pulled an all-nighter. I couldn't sleep, and I ended up overthinking about a lot of things which resulted in me sleeping at 5 a.m. .