2025 was a roller coaster of a year! It was so eventful, I enjoyed every single moment of it - even the hurtful ones!
I completed my final year project, I did my internship, I met the in-love version of me, I made new friends, I became closer to my uni friends, I lost weight (then gained it all back), I hiked so many hills, went on so many walks, watched so many beautiful sunsets, went to malls more times than I can count, I graduated with a bachelor's degree, and I got a job offer by the end of the year!
Now when I write it this way, it looked like everything was so easy and fell into the right place just in time. But please don't be fooled, because it wasn't. I did not include the nerves I got when I was interviewing people and presenting my final year project, the dreaded feeling I felt during the time I was living in campus because I felt so lonely and so trapped. The fact that it took me 3 years to be able to show my friends my actual self. The hurtful words that came out of people's mouth about my weight, despite me actually already losing weight and fat. The remorse and humiliation I felt when I found out the lies of the guy who said he liked me. The first 3 weeks of pain I felt in my legs and the gasping of air every day when I first started brisk walking and hiking. The amount of times I told myself I will not hike anymore yet still going day after day because it was the only thing that kept me going in life. The 4 years of degree before finally getting the scroll. The 3 agonizing months after internship - the overthinking, the rejected applications, the interviews, almost 100 job applications.
In the miniscule moment of every day, it felt like nothing is going anywhere, some of it even felt like the end of the world. The only thing that kept me going was because I know the pain will end soon, and that I must keep going, I have no other options but to just keep walking on. In my mind, I told myself that time will put everything right, and god am I good at waiting. It is all I ever do. And thankfully then one by one things fell into place.
Of course most of this happening is largely thanks to Providence, for aligning the stars for me to step on to the path of my desire. I planted hope and desires in my heart, I looked into it everyday and wished and wished the hardest, and my prayers were heard. And I am so grateful. Although this doesn't eliminate the fact that I still doubted myself "why did I get the job?" "I don't think I was good enough."... But thank God I did get the job, and I am grateful everyday despite feeling like I do not deserve it.
So I guess all's well that ends well. I hope 2026 will be as eventful as 2025, filled with an abundance of luck, health, hope, love, and growth. Amen. ☘︎
